QotD: My Biggest Fear
What is your deepest, darkest fear?
Submitted by [Susan].
That one day, my husband will turn to me and say, "JESUS CHRIST, WOMAN, JUST SHUT UP FOR A MINUTE."
In truth the deepest, darkest fear for me is probably exactly the same as for every other mother, and it is so deep and dark that it is as close to unthinkable and unspeakable as it could be, because to speak it or think it seems to be--in some admittedly Oprah way--to invite its possibility. But there is no bigger fear than the fear that something irrevocable and terrible will happen to your child. It's unbearable even to think it. My husband and I and my mom have all joked, because my son is very active and something of a daredevil who cannot wait to push boundaries and go up one more step on the ladder, that broken bones are fine, we expect them, we can deal with them, we'll all survive them--just please no head trauma.
Comments
I think the fear for our children is always present, but is especially strong when they are young. While they are young we think we can and should protect them from everything. As they grow older and get the hurts and pains we have more confidence in ourselves but we also know that we can't control everything. We all just cross our fingers and hope for the best.
In my family it is me telling my husband to please shut up. He is a little bird from the moment he wakes up to them moment he falls asleep and sometimes even in his sleep. I like my quiet time, so sometimes I have to ask him to please shush up, sometimes I don't say please....
Yes, it's something that, when it crosses a mother's mind, she quickly shakes her head to scare it away...